Red Hot and Fierce!

WARNING! More football analogies than you ever imagined possible ahead...

I'm a very independent-kind-a-girl, some have called me FIERCELY independent (I'm not so sure I'm really FIERCE, refer to above image).

I recently signed on my new downtown apartment, which I love (pics coming soon!) I live by myself and like it that way, because I'M INDEPENDENT! I would rather take the bus than get a ride from someone because I have to prove that I'M INDEPENDENT! I will cut my hand off if that is what it takes to fix something on my own, because I'M INDEPENDENT!

You get the picture...

The truth is I'm willing and ready to TACKLE anything on my own. I wasn't always this way, I'd often go RUNNING BACK to my quiet corner when someone didn't like the way I did something. I let my self esteem get TACKLED on the 4TH DOWN too many times. I PLAYED for the TEAM but was afraid to stand out. When a chance came for me to take my shot at the winning pass, I FUMBLED! Not because I couldn't do it, but because I stood there and thought it was better to get SACKED than attempt a pass that may fail...

I thought this Deja, who spent too much time just holding the ball and not playing was gone, FIERCELY INDEPENDENT Deja was now playing, RIGHT? But, I may have been wrong...

I now stand with the BALL in my hands, an open RECEIVER down field, the perfect PASS a possibility... but the fear of failure looms!

When will I learn to just PASS?